Wednesday, June 22, 2011


We celebrate Father's Day every 3rd sunday of June. It is the time when we give honor to all the fathers in the whole world. Good or bad experiences about your dad will be remembered on this very special day. Whatever you call them, Daddy, Dada, Dad, Tatay, Itay, Papa etc. Try to think without your father, what life would be?
I don't have many good memories about my father when I was growing up. I remember whenever my father got drunk I was always so nervous as if my spirit separated from my human body. I started to hate and blamed my father for all my disappointments. Why I did not finished my study, about my anxieties and all our hardships in life. There was a time that I told my mother  if killing my father in not a sin, I already killed him. I want to see to it that when I get married, I will never, never find a man like my father. In my own eyes, he is not an ideal father and I hated him for that. I was 23 years old when I choose a man  whom I want to share my life with. Very opposite of my father. Not a drunkard or a smoker and I thank God for him. 
When I gave birth to my eldest I started to appreciate my father and I realized that he already changed. He seldom drink liquor and he was there by myside until the baby came out. He even told my mother that if he can only bear the pain instead of me. I realized how  lucky I am because I still have a father. I tried to forget one by one the bad memories that I kept for years. I even ask God's wisdom to guide me to learn to forgive him. I started to recall the good memories instead of bad. I realized that my father is not perfect, but he is very generous, loving and he did not interfere with our personal affairs. He is just there to support us all the way.
We cannot really choose who our father is.. Maybe God gave us "not so good" fathers for us to be strong and tough. If you have the same experience as I had with my father try to realize that  one way or another, we do not exist without our fathers. Start looking at the bright side of life and stop living with your sad past. Tell them how much you appreciate and love them. To all fathers out there specially to my papa and my loving husband, HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!!