Our Story

We never intended to become lovers, 
Or we are not even good friends 
All we have is a company 
That keeps  me happy  each day.


The moment  I first look at you, 
I can't find something to admire you 
But my heart tells me you are the one for me
 To be with, to love and build a home.


Life for us is not always easy, 
We cry, we laugh and now you're miles away
 All I did is hold  on to memory
 Of all the happy times we've spent with our family


I want to say thank you for your patience,
And for giving me two loving children
For loving me unconditionally
I even love you more each day.


Fifteen years has passed and still counting
To God Almighty I am praying.
That He may bless us with many more years
For us to show our love for each other.


Happy 15th Anniversary to You my Dear Husband
Love you with all my heart..

ARE YOU AFRAID TO DIE?

When I logged in to myYearbook account, it says I have a new question from one of my friends. When I opened it, it says:

New
Q: why is it so hard to go to treatment for cancer but yet you know its best for you i know i love my kid she keeps me going every day asked by Matthew S.

Then I answered:

A: First, I think you are scared of the reality but you have to face it. Going to a doctor for treatment is the best thing to do.. Don't lose hope, don't give up. Pray harder and ask God for miracle. I'm praying for you..

Many times in our lives we are afraid of many things. When we were kids we are afraid of the dark, of our parents whenever we disobey them, with failing grades, entrance exams and many more. But when we talk about death it's a different story. I cant imagine how a person fear before he/she was being killed. Just recently I read in yahoo news about  a father with cancer who died 2 years ago who wrote  a message for his children. A sad story of a father dying of skin cancer whose children are very young. He took pictures with his children, filmed messages, and a series of rules as guide for his children while they were growing up because he only have how many months remaining to live. Being diagnosed to have a cancer  is a very scary moment in one's life. When you are being told by your doctor that you only have a few months to live. 

When I was 29, I become hypertensive because of stress and I also did the same. I wrote letters for my children who was then 1 and 6 years old and for my husband. I want the best for my kids but I'm afraid I might die anytime. You love your kids that you cannot afford to see them in the wrong track. So I wrote so many " I want you to be like this, and to be like that". 

Looking back I was  I thinking why I was so afraid to die before? Is that really your family, specially your children's future you are afraid of or it is your own soul? Admit it or not we are all wondering where our souls will be going after we die. When I accept Christ in my heart and allow HIM to control my life became a different story. Who is not really afraid to die but it's  not the same fear I felt in the past. Now I have my assurance of my salvation and nobody can take it from me. I have this peace in my heart whenever I think about death. Being in Christ is really a benefit and an inspiration to me. I have seen people who suffered from severe sicknesses yet they are peaceful. Is this only a matter of acceptance? Or it only depends on on'es own attitude on how they see things in their own eyes?

I want to comfort people who are in this kind of situations but how will I start? I'm afraid I may utter the wrong words! I want to tell them the CHRIST in my life and in many Christian's life WHO assured us of our salvation. For it says in Deuteronomy 31:6

Be strong and of a good courage, fear not, nor be afraid of them: for the LORD thy God, he it is that doth go with thee; he will not fail thee, nor forsake thee. Thanks to my God for the assurance of Heaven through Jesus Christ. So why live in fears of death? Find God in your life, abide in HIM. Thank you Lord!

A Poem for Nanay

My heart is aching I can't help my tears to fall,
When I think of you I will always recall:
The time when I was young and you're always by my side,
To love, to hold, to understand and to guide.

All the stories you have told will always remain,
Though remembering all those things will always bring the pain;
In my heart I'm always grateful that you were always there,
To complete my childhood with memories so clear.

You're a great person who touched so many lives,
With passion and affection that cannot be denied;
Now that you're gone it's hard for us to think,
That we lost a special person who'll never be replaced.

We can't find the exact words to tell you how much we LOVE you so..
But deep inside our hearts we know that you feel it too;
I hope someday we'll see each other again,
But right now I'm still praying that i can bear all the pain..

We missed you nanay..
I'm so sad na dimo ako naantay..

FATHER

We celebrate Father's Day every 3rd sunday of June. It is the time when we give honor to all the fathers in the whole world. Good or bad experiences about your dad will be remembered on this very special day. Whatever you call them, Daddy, Dada, Dad, Tatay, Itay, Papa etc. Try to think without your father, what life would be?
I don't have many good memories about my father when I was growing up. I remember whenever my father got drunk I was always so nervous as if my spirit separated from my human body. I started to hate and blamed my father for all my disappointments. Why I did not finished my study, about my anxieties and all our hardships in life. There was a time that I told my mother  if killing my father in not a sin, I already killed him. I want to see to it that when I get married, I will never, never find a man like my father. In my own eyes, he is not an ideal father and I hated him for that. I was 23 years old when I choose a man  whom I want to share my life with. Very opposite of my father. Not a drunkard or a smoker and I thank God for him. 
When I gave birth to my eldest I started to appreciate my father and I realized that he already changed. He seldom drink liquor and he was there by myside until the baby came out. He even told my mother that if he can only bear the pain instead of me. I realized how  lucky I am because I still have a father. I tried to forget one by one the bad memories that I kept for years. I even ask God's wisdom to guide me to learn to forgive him. I started to recall the good memories instead of bad. I realized that my father is not perfect, but he is very generous, loving and he did not interfere with our personal affairs. He is just there to support us all the way.
We cannot really choose who our father is.. Maybe God gave us "not so good" fathers for us to be strong and tough. If you have the same experience as I had with my father try to realize that  one way or another, we do not exist without our fathers. Start looking at the bright side of life and stop living with your sad past. Tell them how much you appreciate and love them. To all fathers out there specially to my papa and my loving husband, HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!!

A FRIEND

A friend is anyone, maybe your parent,  your sibling, relatives and sometimes they do not have any blood realtion to you but they occupy a very special place in your heart. I have a childhood friend who is very dear to me. Our friendship was built for years and strengthened by love and respect.  When we we're young we used to read comics, listen to music, chat all day etc. I remember we took a bath together and we are both half naked..lol. I want to extend my gratitude to her through this blog.Thank you friend for the great memories we shared together.
They say that Friendship is like money, easier made than kept. But I can proudly say that this is not true. I can keep and treasure friendship. Distance is not an issue, even communication. Though we did not see each other for years the friendship never change. We both have families but the love and respect is still there.
In this very fast changing world very few can find a true friend. We meet different people everyday but it's  hard to establish true friendship. If you're one of them, let me remind you what a true friend is..
They say that a true friend is a person who will never betray you.  The one who will lift you up when you're down. Through good times and bad she/he is always there for you , in laughter and in tears. For me a true friend is a person who will not only praise you but she will also tells you all your mistakes even to the point that you will get hurt. That only means that she she//he cares for you. Now show your friends how grateful you are and they are a blessing to you. Treasure your true friends because as we travel in this world, what we can find best is a true and honest friend.